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Hey peoples. I don't know what to really talk about. I have so many thoughts in my head, you could make an episode with them. I feel used, I feel like I have no friends, no family, nothing. I see other people asking others if they wanna hang but it seems like I've always have been the one asking someone to hang. Sometimes they said yes but most of the time it's a no and they make some excuse so "i don't feel bad". Well that never works. I know they make an excuse and I tell them to tell me the truth but no one does. I'm losing "friends" and all that. 
I have about 200 friends and I know at least 99.9 percent barely talk to me. I don't know what to say or think. I'm completely hurt and don't really have any advice that I could give if someone was in my shoes. This is a first. So yeah. This is what is going through my mind. Imagine my mind trying to find the meaning of life. 

Since life doesn't have a definition, trying to find the meaning would be hard. Thats how my mind is always. I get treated badly everywhere I am at it seems. I guess my life was just meant to be sad and pointless. I'm going to sign off here and just lay here. If u have any advice, you can email me at thejapfiles@gmail.com. 

Night peeps.....
-The Jap Files