Chapter 2: Texas

-Ding over PA- "Well ladies and gentlemen, we will be landing momentarily. the current temp is....."

I wake up from sleeping a good three hours and found that I drooled all over myself. I quickly wipe that up and stretch real quick. I turn around and see both of my friends are still asleep and they looked funny with their mouths open and drooling.

The plane finally started to slow down and come down to earth as it reached the runway. I feel a slight bump as the tires hit the ground, and as we finally make it to Texas. My heart was racing a little bit because we were finally at our place we will call home for the next two months...San Antonio. 

We finally got off the plane and headed to get our bags. Once we got our bags, we headed to the USO to chill until we got warmly greeted by our MTI. After three hours rolled by, our MTI greeted us with open arms by yelling at and demanding us to make four straight lines outside. This is where I knew my life would start to really turn around. 

After we got in four lines, we were told to wait. After about two hours, two people passed out. I could feel the rush of my legs fixing to give in, so I decided to kneel down and try to get through that moment. Finally the bus came and we all boarded the bus. I got out my phone and text my friends and family telling them bye and love them one last time, then it was game time. 

We headed to Lackland and there is where we in-processed and headed to our dorms that we would be living for the next two months. When we finally got our room, we were nicely told to put up our stuff, get in the shower, and get to bed, and had to do all that in thirty minutes. I felt like I was home finally. And for the people that don't know, that was sarcasm. Tomorrow started a new chapter in my life...military training was soon filling my life.  

The Adventure (Chapter 1)

August 2011

This month is one of the most memorable times I could ever remember. A young, smart, guy like me made a commitment to join the armed forces. I swore into the Air National Guard and made a promise to defend my country with my life. To defend the President whatever means necessarily. It was 4:30 when I hear the alarm go off. I got dressed, ate breakfast, finish packing what I needed in my suitcase and headed out the door. My parents still half asleep as they start the car, wished me good luck and hope that I will make it without any problems. Other than that everything was quiet until we got to the airport. My dad met up with me and my mom and step-dad and we sat around until an hour before my flight arrived. I saw my other friends arrive, Tyler and Jennifer. They had their families with them and they all sat in their spots and said their last words. I saw Tyler cry before he left his family, and then I started to do the same. We all said our last goodbyes and headed through the security checkpoint. The three of us all met up before going through and talked about how Basic Military Training might be. I was nervous, Tyler was excited, and Jennifer was 50/50 about it. We went to the mini store and got some snacks and drinks before boarding the plane. By the time I sat down on the plane, it hit me. That today was the day that my life would forever change. The plane did its final checks and we were off to the heartland of the military....Texas.



Chapter 2 is on the way, hope you liked it so far. Hope everyone has a good night. Be safe.
NIGHT PEEPS!!! <(^.^)>

just tired of it

I love how people tell you one thing and then tell you a different thing, or do a different thing. It really hurts how I feel used and abused when I try to think about things. I have a lot on my mind, yet people think I can immediately decide something big right then and there. I'm hurt inside and I don't know what to do and it tears me apart to be in this position. I guess whatever happens happens and I can't stop it. I guess I'll go on to sleep. Night people....

-The Jap Files

Am I?

Am I really this bad? Am I really just a bad person that makes everyone mad or sad....never happy? Why do I always get pushed down and/or replaced by someone that is better. why cant anyone just take me for who I am, not what they want me to be? Why do I have to be replaced by someone or something that lives far away. why do I just suck. why do pol just use me instead of becoming a part of me. I feel like I should put up walls when sooner or later someone or something will take it down. I tried to give everything I have to the world but the world just consumed what I had and threw me aside. I ask myself "if the world really loves me, then why does it use me? why does it take everything I have and push me down? smother me until I give in?" I look back and see that I was in a dream, knowing that it would become a nightmare with a flip of a switch. knowing that what I do in my future would determine who and what changes around me. I cnt breathe, I cnt sleep, I cnt eat....all I can do is think. Think of what I went through. Think of what I love and hated. I saw more love than hate but many ppl saw more hate then love. I feel like I was the cause of the situation. the cancer to prostate. the virus in which infected the world. I feel like if I just died, that the world would become perfect. that the world would just become sinless and aimless. where every disease would be cure. no drama would happen. and where everyone would be actually happy.

I'll just lay in this hole, sitting....thinking.....wondering who will rescue me. If no one rescues me then I'll leave a will and my carcass for anyone who finds me. and in that will, I will leave steps on how to not go where I have gone. where they can be happy instead of acting happy.


I sit here....listening...and I hear....crickets...cars passing by....and the rooster crowing in the distance. the moon is gleaming in the sky, but I sit here....blind. only with a paper and pen shall I write what I feel. and if I were to die, my hopes that someday a guy or gal will pick up that note and read and show what not to do.


last thing to know. I feel as if I'm a lost child in a world of darkness. crying for help. but no one comes. I feel like that. so I ask you readers....am I just nothing....am I just someone who will be in misery forever?....who will just keep putting walls and being used by the world.



am I???


-The Jap Files

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The Firefighter's Creed.

For those who haven't been up to date on my life and what is coming to it, I have done the things below:

-Become a Firefighter
-Become an Air Force Guardsman
-Become lazy
-Have a beautiful gf
-Live my life


But today, I have only one thing that I want to talk about...the firefighter's creed.

It goes as follows:

When I am called to duty. God.
Whenever flames may rage,
Give me strength to save some lives,
Whatever be its age.

Help me embrace a little child,
Before it is too late.
Or save an older person,
From the horror of that fate.

Enable me to be alert,
And hear the weakest shout,
And quickly and efficiently,
To put that fire out.

I want to fill my calling,
And to give the best in me,
To guard my every neighbor,
And protect his property.

And if, according to my fate,
I am to lose my life.
Please bless with your protecting,
Hand the special people in my life.

-Author Unknown


This is one of the creeds I go by and never will forget until the day I die. Well I'm going to go on to bed, hope everyone has a great night and a safe one too. NIGHT PEEPS!!!!

-The Jap Files
<(^.^)>

Life is like a road....

I've gotten many emails over things such as issues with friends, families, and drama dealing with school. Well I decided to talk about it and try to help as best as I could. Now even though it's like 2 in the morning, I couldn't sleep so I thought this could help.

A guy emailed me about his issues dealing with three people: his wife, his sister, and his best-friend. He agreed for me to tell the story about it with privacy being used as I tell the story. His wife was pregnant with a baby girl. He loved her to death but was scared about what to do and what he should do. His sister, who he loved to death, was just so helpful and perfect as God wanted a person to be. Well when he decided to listen to his sister instead of his best-friend, his best-friend decided to take action. The best-friend decided to inject some substances into the sister's arm, thus making her really sick and sent to the hospital. When she went to the hospital, she was diagnosed dead and this sent the guy swirling down a dark road. A dark road where no light could be seen.

To make matters worse, the best-friend blamed all of the problems on him and committed suicide because he made her "kill herself". When this happened, he just collapsed and became overwhelmed with guilt, and sadness. Later on down the road, the wife had a miss-carriage and  now developed cancer in the stomach. Now when I heard this, I was shocked at what I thought had happened. I thought this wasn't true until he proved it by showing me documentation of the incidents.


I never want to see this happen to anyone, that is why I help. All I can do is give out advice and tell people to just gather their thoughts and calm down.


What I think about this situation is that you should sit down, drink some water, and write things that make you happy and things that make you sad. Even though those things has happened to you, you should never let the past effect your future. God has placed those obstacles in your life because he is preparing you for the future that has yet to come. Once you have overcome those obstacles, then you can accomplish anything. Yes, it will take time, but the question is this: When do you decide to get over the past and rebuild yourself for the future? Just don't keep focusing on what has happened, and focus on what you can do. You can accomplish anything if you just believe. I don't know if you are religious but just do this or at least try. Just pray to God, tell him that you need help, and ask for guidance.  I think that God has made me a person that helps as best as I can. I hope I could help this person and many other people with similar problems.


I hope that EVERYONE has a great day and night and if you have any questions or problems, you can send me an email (please tell me who you are and a reply email would be great) at thejapfiles@gmail.com. Well I'm tired so I'm gonna hit the hay. GOODNIGHT PEEPS!!!!


-The Jap Files
<(^.^)>

How songs just make you tear up and feel special inside

Some songs like the ones that are playing (unless you paused them) just sometimes puts tears in my eyes. I know there are some other songs that you might think could bring tears to people eyes, I'm just gonna talk about these songs that are playing because they mean a lot to me. 

One song that is on the playlist is "For the First Time" by The Script. I just love how he talks about this girl (his girlfriend) and how she has a broken heart because they fight all the time and never come to a conclusion, and he describes how they never have time to see each other until the night when they "start with cheap bottles of wine" and relax and talk "for the first time". She then feels like she has revived herself and her heart has healed. I feel like my girlfriend and I never have times because we both work. We also fight a lot and that breaks both of our hearts and then when we come meet together, we just sit in the tall grass and talk as if we have met for the first time. I don't know about y'all but that song makes me feel like it is talking to me and how we can just forget about the world and just relax and worry about US and not THE WORLD. I was getting frustrated about how I couldn't find it until just now so I immediately bought it and now I'm happy <(^.^)>.

The next song that is on the playlist is "Don't You Wanna Stay" by Jason Aldean featuring Kelly Clarkson.  Both great singers, and both creating an amazing song just makes me feel happy. I really don't know why it makes me happy, just makes me wonder if "I wanna stay with "her" for a little while" and then makes me feel glad that I have what I have and how far I have gone with my life. I asked my girlfriend if she wanted to fall asleep with me and want me to hold her tight and she was speechless because I took that phrase from the song, and because she thought it was really sweet, maybe just because I stole the phrase. haha. It also makes me feel like I want to dance (slow dance) with someone and enjoy the moment. I think people should enjoy the moment and never let life pass before your eyes. Sooner or later life will be gone and you won't realize it until it's too late. I bet y'all think I'm corny too. :P

The last song I have to discuss is "If I Die Young" by The Band Perry. This song makes me realize "what if I did die young...what would happen?". She explains that if she died young, she would want to bury in satin (not Saturn) and laid on a bed of roses, while being sunk in a river before the sun rose. She has it all planned out. She also talks about her family and what would they do when they see their daughter being buried underneath them. If my family had to bury me, I would want them to bury me formal (in my uniform), put me under, and not worry about if I'm safe or not because I plan on protecting my family, close friends, and anyone that needs my help. If I could, I would love to come back as a guardian angel and protect the ones that are in need. Just these songs make me think about life and how much people (even me) take it for granted. 

Well if you would like to comment or tell me your favorite songs, just send me an email at thejapfiles@gmail.com and we can chat. Also if you ever need help with life or just need someone to talk to, just email me and I'll respond as soon as I can. I love to help people and make them happy. Well I'm going to go listen to music. Drop me a line. Be safe and have a great night. LATER PEEPS

-The Jap Files

<(^.^)>

Artist Of The Day: The Beatles

Well I got an email about Friday (yes I do actually get busy), and I am finally responding to my fans. I promised that I would research the artist and or song, and even put songs made by the artist on my blog as well. So here we go...


Note: When I tried to find some music to put on here, there wasn't any song by The Beatles that were available :( Sorry. I tried to upload but I believe that violates copyright laws....deeply sorry

The Beatles
Born: February 24 1943

Band Names:

-John Lennon
-Paul McCartney
-George Harrison
-Ringo Starr

Bio: (Source: http://www.imdb.com/name/nm1397313/bio)

Mini Biography

The Beatles are the greatest popular group of all-time. Arguably the most successful entertainers of the 20th century, they contributed to music, film, literature, art, and fashion, made a continuous impact on popular culture and the lifestyle of several generations. Their songs and images carrying powerful ideas of love, peace, help, and imagination evoked creativity and liberation that outperformed the rusty Soviet propaganda and contributed to breaking walls in the minds of millions, thus making impact on human history.


In July of 1957, in Liverpool, Paul McCartney met John Lennon and joined his group, The Quarrymen. George Harrison joined them in February of 1958. In 1959 they played regular gigs at a club called The Casbah. They were joined by vocalist Stuart Sutcliffe, and by drummer Peter Best, whose mother owned The Casbah club. Early incarnations of the band included The Quarrymen, Johnny & the Moon Dogs, and The Silver Beetles. John Lennon dreamed up the band's final name, The Beatles, a mix of beat with beetle. In 1960 The Beatles toured in Hamburg, Germany. There they were hired by singer Tony Sheridan as a backing band for his recordings for the German Polydor label. During the year of 1961 they played regular gigs at the Cavern club and were looking for a new manager. By the mutual decision of the Beatles' members, their first manager, namedAllan Williams, was replaced.

Brian Epstein was invited to be the manager of the Beatles in November 1961. His diplomatic way of dealing with the Beatles and with their previous manager resulted in a December 10, 1961, meeting, where it was decided that Epstein would manage the band. A 5-year management contract was signed by four members at then-drummer Pete Best's home on January 24, 1962. Epstein did not put his signature on it, giving the musicians the freedom of choice. At that time McCartney and Harrison were under 21, so the paper wasn't technically legal. None of them realized this and it did not matter to them. What mattered was their genuine trust in Epstein. He changed their early image for the good. Brian Epstein made them wear suits and ties, classic shoes, and newer haircuts. They were advised to update their manners on stage and quit eating and drinking in public. Brian Epstein worked hard on both the Beatles' image and public relations. He improved their image enough to make them accepted by the conservative media of their time. Most if not all of their communication off-stage was managed by Brian Epstein.


In May of 1962 Epstein canceled the group's contract with Tony Sheridan and the German label. During the year of 1962 Brian Epstein was persistent in trying to sign a record deal for the Beatles, even after being rejected by every major record label in UK, like Columbia, Philips, Oriole, Decca, and Pye. Epstein transferred a demo tape to disc with HMV technician Jim Foy, who liked their song and referred it to Parlophone's George Martin. On June 6, 1962, at the Abbey Road studios, they passed Martin's audition with the exception of Pete Best. George Martin liked them, but recommended the change of a drummer. Being asked by John Lennon, Paul McCartney, and George Harrison; Epstein fired Pete Best. After a mutual decision the band was completed with the session drummer, named Ringo Starr, who duly became the fourth Beatle. In September of 1962 The Beatles recorded their first hit Love Me Do, which charted in UK, and reached the top of the US singles chart in 1964.


In early performances the Beatles included popular songs from the 40s and 50s. They played rock-n-roll and R&B-based pop songs while they gradually worked on developing a style of their own. Their mixture of rock-n-roll, skiffle, blues, country, soul, and a simplified version of 1930s jazz resulted in several multi-genre and cross-style sounding songs. They admitted their interest in the music of Buddy Holly, Elvis Presley, Little Richard and other entertainers of the 40s, 50s and early 60s. Beatles' distinctive vocals were sometimes reminiscent of the Everly Brothers' tight harmonies. By 1965 their style absorbed ethnic music influences from India and other Oriental cultures, and later expanded into psychedelic experiments and classical-sounding compositions. Their creative search covered a range of styles from jazz and rock to a cosmopolitan cross-cultural and cross-genre compositions.

Now that you have learned a little about "The Beatles", I hope that you enjoyed learning something about the arts of music. If you didn't like it then email me and I'll come up with some other ideas in which people will love to read on my blog. Hope everyone has a great night and be safe. Night Peeps

-The Jap Files

<(^.^)>

Facebook + Twitter + Friends Misunderstood = Loads Of Laughters

So this blog is a special blog because of these reasons:

-My previous blog was a little hazy
-My friends are getting confused
-Technology is ruling my life
-Lastly....b/c I want this blog to be special :P

Oh by the way people, at the bottom of this page, there is a media player with some music that was requested awhile ago, and I thought that if you wanted to listen to some music that you like, just drop me a line at thejapfiles@gmail.com. If you do drop me a line, I'll blog about you and what your music is about (yes, that means I'll research about the artist and music and etc). So if you wanna listen to your music, you can drop me a line on here, and I'll post it on here, or you can turn on your nifty little iTunes and ignore what I have (which would make me sad).


Okay, back to what I was talking about...my last blog was a little hazy so let me clarify...erin and taylor are dating. Taylor is a guy and Erin is a girl. They are both my best-friends. They live in the same town as I do and they know me really well. Now that we got that out of the way, feel free to ask me anything else other than what I have just explained.

My friends get confused easily. This is why I blog about what needs to be explained. Even though my title is a little racist, that doesn't mean that I am racist. I am half-Asian. So that explains why I named my site "The Jap Files", because I write what I wanna talk about...which in this case...about my friends.

Technology is ruling my world and others as well. I bet my life saving that every computer will have a computer (no matter what it is) in their home before the year 2012. I say this because everything we own and operate is computer-operated. Soon enough, the world will be taken over by computers. I mean I would love to have Arkansas become more futuristic(yes,.....I would like a farming state to become technological).

Now the last thing about why I want this blog to be special, is because I want it to be. Yes, because I said so. How does that make you feel??? Pretty shocked that I just controlled what you are reading. I could just talk and talk and talk and all you would be doing is reading and reading and reading until YOU saw the end of this page and saw the legal copyright laws at the bottom. Unless you think that you should read this again...in which...be my guest. :)


Anyway, tomorrow is church, then work, so I'm going to go on to bed before I pass out on the keyboard and type a bunch of random letters and keys. Hope everyone is having a great summer and hope everyone is safe. Peace out Girl-Scouts (and Boy-Scouts :P)

-The Jap Files
<(^.^)>

Life: College, Military, Family, Friends, & Enjoyment

Man, my life has had its ups and downs. My life has many twist and turns. I can't believe I have endured the many challenges and adventures that have passed by me as I develop and grow. And for the people that are wondering if this post will be a long...be prepared <(^.^)>.

College is creeping slowly and I could never be more excited to head to Jonesboro and study what I love: Radio/Television Broadcasting. ASU (Arkansas State University) have greeted me with open arms and invited me into their care and helping me with my career in which I plan on succeeding in. Along with me for the ride are two of my closest friends, Erin & Taylor. Not only are they my friends, but they are actually dating (shocking right?). Even though they are dating, they were friends before and provided me with tons of advice and helped me with the struggles in my life. I could actually say that they could be part of my family because they are so close to me that I trust them with everything I have. The sad part about my story is that they will be at ASU while I head towards the military side of my life. They have told me that they will truly miss me while I am gone and can't wait for me to return. love you guys and hope y'all have fun while I'm away ;)

Now on to the next sub-topic, Military. I enlisted in the military as a Guardsman. I protect and serve my country with my LIFE and protect my fellow airmen, and fellow Americans. I will defend, fight, and win. I can truly call myself a soldier in the line of duty, and a protector. Many of my friends have told me that I would be great at protecting people and helping the country because of how my personality flows. I have protected many people and will continue to do so as my life progresses onward. As part of the motto says: Service before self....I will protect my fellow airmen....I am an airman.

Family, the one thing that develops you as you become mature and unique. If we didn't have family, then our society would become drastically different then what it is today. Everything we do is because of our families and how we were raised. I want to thank my family and the other families that have helped one way or another while I have developed and became who I am today.

Friends, the link to your life...the link and courage to what you want to become. They all have a purpose in your life no matter if it was good or bad. They still played a factor in your life. Whether it be them saying hey as they pass by or if they just blew you off for another appointment.They still helped mold you into who you are now.

Lastly, enjoyment. Enjoying yourself and what you do is like the icing on the cake. The extra topping. If you don't enjoy life then you're missing out on what is ahead of you. You only have one life and one chance to take on life. I plan on taking life by the horns and embracing it and enjoy EVERY minute no matter what it is. I  hope my friends will be there along with me to enjoy life with me.

Well it's about 1:00 in the morning and I think I should head on to bed. I hope to type more tomorrow. Well hope everyone has a great night. NIGHT PEEPS!!!!

-The Jap Files <(^.^)>

what if.....

I've always wondered what it would be like if I just disappeared and was out of everyone's life. I bet that everyone would be happy and not worry about a shitty person like me. I get discriminated, judged, and patronized everytime I do something "stupid". that really makes me mad. I know I'm not smart or anything but I'm not retarded. I hate that people judge me so severely. it's been like that for the past 12 years at least. but if I just disappeared forever, then there wouldn't be a problem.

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My mind.....just why??...

well sry for the late post....but a lot has happened in the past two weeks. I'm here in hot springs, typing on my blog, and trying to relax. I cant focus, I can't even stay around my friends bc they cuddle with their significant other. All I can do is just get away and sit down and be in my own world. Its not their fault that they r dating ppl, just that I can't handle any of that right now. I know no one ever reads this blog so this gives me a chance to let everything out without anyone thinking different of me. I feel stupid and useless. I'm nothing but crap. That is what I feel. I try to not worry but it only gets worse. I can only sit in the lobby and eat cheetos and type away. I feel so secluded by my friends and by everyone. I feel like I only can be myself when I'm by myself. I'm not meant for this earth. I fail at everything. why do I even try. I'm crying inside and have to build walls in order for me to hold my feelings inside. people don't understand what I feel yet they "think" that they know. my life completely sucks and I just wanna scream to the world. I don't even know if I can handle the competition tomorrow because of how many couples there will be. I feel like I'm a stranger and that no one knows me. all I can do is stay quiet. none of my friends will txt me when they are near me or even come talk to me so I just stay here and watch others be happy. I don't know what happy is anymore. I don't think I'll ever know. I bet that they dnt realize that I left the room and all that bc they are all happy. I cnt barely type anything now bc of my emotions. I'm nothing and forever will. be I guess bc that's how I was born. I was born a bad child to where I would have a suckish life and it will stay that way. My family hates me, my teachers hate me, everyone hates me. I'm nothing. I'll just end my blog here and hope to be able to type later on. bye.

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.~insert title here~.

Hey peoples. I don't know what to really talk about. I have so many thoughts in my head, you could make an episode with them. I feel used, I feel like I have no friends, no family, nothing. I see other people asking others if they wanna hang but it seems like I've always have been the one asking someone to hang. Sometimes they said yes but most of the time it's a no and they make some excuse so "i don't feel bad". Well that never works. I know they make an excuse and I tell them to tell me the truth but no one does. I'm losing "friends" and all that. 
I have about 200 friends and I know at least 99.9 percent barely talk to me. I don't know what to say or think. I'm completely hurt and don't really have any advice that I could give if someone was in my shoes. This is a first. So yeah. This is what is going through my mind. Imagine my mind trying to find the meaning of life. 

Since life doesn't have a definition, trying to find the meaning would be hard. Thats how my mind is always. I get treated badly everywhere I am at it seems. I guess my life was just meant to be sad and pointless. I'm going to sign off here and just lay here. If u have any advice, you can email me at thejapfiles@gmail.com. 

Night peeps.....
-The Jap Files 

Never worry about the past. (Feb 10)

While I was laying in bed, I was wondering about things that I have regretted and things that I haven't regretted. I start to wonder why things that have happened, happened for a reason and what that reason might of been. I start listing the reasons and some of them were pretty stupid. One of my friends told me before "things happen for a reason, in order for you to be formed into the person you have become.". I start to repeat what they said and then I realize that it was true what they said about the past. If the things that happened, didn't happen, then I don't think I would be the person I am now. I would be a different person that no one could possibly think of. So everything that happens to you, happens for a reason and don't ever let anyone stop you from being who u are. be yourself no matter what happens. Well I'm off to bed. NIGHT PEEPS!!!!

<(^.^)>
-The Jap Files

Snow...and how to overcome boredness. :) (Feb. 9)

Hello people of the internet clan and I just wanted to thank people for the statuses that were posted. I thank ya for them. So as the snow has engulfed my house, I sit in my room and wonder in my head..."what can I do while the snow is freezing my outside wonders I call nature?". Well I have came up with many solutions in which people could be "entertained" while staying in the warm area outside and away from the snow. Some of them are dumb and some of them are pretty cool. So here we go.

One thing you could do is clean the mess in your room that your mom has been telling you to do for the past four years and you always come up with some excuse like "I'm doing work", or "I'm learning about such and such" when we all know you are playing halo, owning a bunch of people while you eat the bags of chip your parents just bought. Even though it's stupid and you know that half of America is lazy to do anything, at least you could kill time.

Another thing is you could play some games with your family (monopoly, halo, COD4, sorry) and that could kill some time as you stay warm inside. This could bring your family closer while killing time and bringing in some laughs along the way.

Last thing you could do while you're snowed in is that you could sleep and/or create a blog. When I was stuck at my house for awhile, I decided to make this blog so I could kill some time, plus I could let my imagination and my thoughts run out of my head onto a internet engine in which many people can see what I say. I've have slept for almost the equivalent of three-forths of a whole day, that is why I'm wide awake and just sitting here blogging away.

There are tons of things you can do out in the snow, but many people soon get cold and tired of the white substance and tend to want to head inside and watch movies. Well there were some of the things you could while you posting on facebook that you are bored out of your mind and don't know what to do. Well I'm off to sleep or maybe go eat some pizza. Hope everyone is having a great break from school and hopes everyone has a great night. Be safe everyone. NIGHT PEEPS!!!

<(^.^)>
 -The Jap Files

Light at the end of the hole (Feb 1)

Sorry people for the long delay, I have been busy lately with work and school. Now back to where we left off. Now we are walking through the small tiny rabbit hole, thus showing that we have shown tremendous progress. Now you are reaching the end of the rabbit hole and you see a bright light at the end of the tunnel. What do u do now? Well now think of this...if you saw a hundred dollar bill on the ground and no one was around to pick it up, would you pick it up and spend it on something like food or something you want, or would you invest it in stocks or in your bank? I hope this makes sense. So would you just keep walking towards the light or would you take some precaution before going towards the light? Now if I were in this situation, I would go full force towards the light but you have only one chance to do everything in your one life. Like I said before, your life is like a camera, you're recording every move you do and that could effect what you do later on. So what do you think you should do since you're being tested by many watchers. You have a main job and a unique job like everyone else. Here is an example, in the movie The Matrix, Neo is going through a simulation in which he must know who is a machine and who is a friend. He sees the beautiful lady in the red dress and checks her out. Morpheus then asks Neo "are you listening to me, or were you paying attention to the lady in the red dress", then he asks Neo to turn around and the lady in the red dress soon evolves into a sentinel, the machine in which they are trying to avoid. Morpheus tells link to pause the simulation and explains to Neo that basically he must watch every step he takes and must know who is who and who to trust because in the "real" world, you can only trust yourself and the people that rebel with you.

Now that I explained that, in life, there is only one chance you can do what you want, and once it's gone, it's gone. Like the lady in the red dress was his chance to stop himself from getting killed, but within a blink of his eye, the lady became a robot and could have killed him. I'm not saying that you must defend yourself from people killing you, just life is too short to miss what you could have done. Trying is key to everything, just have a little motive inside yourself and you can go far. Neo when he first became part of the rebellion, he had no motive at all. When he was tested to jump from building to building, he fail miserably, because he assumed that he couldn't do it. Now towards the end of the series, he has the mind set in which he knows he can do anything if he has a motive and tries. Now back to the question...how will you go on about going to the light that you see at the end of the hole? Will you go ahead and not worry about what happens, or will you think twice about what you do in life before something bad might happen. Here are some examples:

Examples:
-If you are getting drunk, think twice about driving.
-If you are going through rough times, think before you do something drastic to yourself.


No matter what you do, think before you do it at least so you know for sure that you are doing what's right. Well this ends this segment for tonight. I'm off to bed. NIGHT PEEPS!!!!

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-The Jap Files

Further into the rabbit hole (Jan 26)

Now, I have listed the goods and bads that were in my life as I said I would. Then after I list them, I would come up with some things in order to make the bads into goods and the goods even better.

Goods:
-Dating Tiffany
-Having Friends
-Living and being me

Bads:
-Drama
-Stress
-Losing close people

Now drama and stress can be put together, so how could I turn them into good? Well it will take time to turn them into good but when I graduate, they will all go away. Now losing close people can also take time too. I just try to dwell on the good times and never on the bad. It helps a lot to think positive.

Now on to the next subject: Going further into the rabbit hole. As we left off, life is like a rabbit hole, there are tons of different types...how could you know which one is the right one to go in. Well we said to just take the chance and go the extra mile. Now we are at the stage in which you just take another step further. Where you venture around in the rabbit hole to see what it will unravel. Some of you might be thinking "why should I listen to you" or "why should I take the chance when I know what will happen". Well for many of the millions of people that live on this earth, even me, they tend to assume and think that when they assume that their life is ending, that they should end it quickly. I believe that it's not the case. I think they should challenge the future and see if it will back down. Sometimes, drama and stress tend to bluff about that kind of stuff so what I think you should do is just bluff back and make it think that you wont give up and show no mercy.

As you go further into the rabbit hole, what do you think you will see? Will you see it empty? Vacant? Or will you see mysterious creatures and magic at every turn? I bet now, you might think I'm some crazy typer and that I don't know what I'm saying. Maybe it is you that doesn't understand what I am saying...yet. Try to think it this way. If you see life empty and vacant, then that is what you will keep thinking later on in life. Do you try to think of life as lifeless? Because that defeats the purpose of the meaning life. Life is an object in which produces in some way in order to sustain what we hold now. If life were lifeless, then the word life would have no meaning what so ever. Now after I have said that, would you still think of life as vacant or lifeless? If so, then you need to talk to someone about what is going on inside of you, because there is no way or reason why you should think of life like that.

Now if you see life as a mysterious yet magically place, then maybe this means that you are ready for adventure and never afraid to take a risk. Even though this is great, this could also lead to many problems. Problems such as not seeing the realistic side of life, not listening to what other people see, and many more. Life in general is like chess. Chess is a hard, yet smart game in which you must choose every turn like if it was your last. If you mess up once, then you might lose the game for good. Life is like this so closely because you have no replay button or rewind button. You are recording what you see and do and it is permanently there, until you forget about it.

Imagine this. While you are walking further into the rabbit hole, do you walk scarcely or do you walk with pride and no fear at all. Now before you answer, think of it carefully. You are walking into uncharted territory and you have no map, no light, and no way to escape. How do you know you are going the right way? What is considered your light? What is considered your map? Where do you think you will end up when you find the light at the end of the hole? Those questions will lead us to our next segment tomorrow (or whenever I can get back on).

This is the closure for tonight and I hope this made sense to you. I hope you have a good night and sweetdreams. NIGHT PEEPS!!!

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-The Jap Files

Life...A Maze? (Jan.24)

   
Quote of the Day:

"When one door of happiness closes, another opens, but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one that has been opened for us."
-Helen Keller

    
    Sorry people. I just thought I could take a break from the challenge and talk about something else. Now I wanted to talk about life and what I think about it. Now this can lead to so many rabbit holes, but try to keep up. Now I'm not saying that these "rabbit holes" are pointless and there is only one right one, I'm just simply saying that it's all based on preference. Now, back to what I was talking about. Life is like a maze...there is only one way in and out. There are so many "dead ends", but once you learn the route, it's a piece of cake. Now imagine yourself being put in a maze by the "upper power"(whether you believe in God or something else, just didn't want to offend anyone), how would you take the maze? What I'm saying is that what would you do first in order to achieve the goal? Will you just run until you hit a wall or will you take small steps. Now I'm not saying there is a certain way to take on a maze (because I always go to the finish and head to the start to beat the maze. haha). Just think outside the box.


    Let's say you take the maze on and run after it, what would be the outcome? Think of this, let's say you are having a rough time in life right now and you think there is no way out, will you just jump the gun and immediately do something drastic, or will you keep pushing? If any one of y'all have seen The Matrix, where Neo faces his fate, and Morpheus gives him two decisions....return back to his dream life or go further into the rabbit hole. He decides to go further, so he could find out what life is really about. Now think of this, imagine being Neo...what would you do? Would you go further into the rabbit hole or go back into a dream, a trance, in which life seem lifeless? Now take that same analogy and put it back into the maze scenario. Running through the maze and hitting a wall soon enough is like going back to the trance in which nothing happened, except that your late for work, and your boss is furious. Would you still run through? Not worrying about what happens? Or would you take steps to know what really is going to happen later on.


    Now that you have thought about that, let's go to the other end of the universe. Let's say you take little steps through the maze, looking at each and every detail so that you do not make the same mistake twice, would it be worth it? Would it be worth it to take all that time to make sure you do not make the same mistake twice? Where it might take twice as long to find the "exit" instead of just guessing? In the movie The Matrix, Neo decides to take the chance and go further into the rabbit hole, what happens next. He awakens for the first time and finds out that he was trapped by the machines in which he wanted to destroy. In which he thought he could defeat...but he didn't see them like this. Then Morpheus finds him and saves him from the machines....for the moment. Now back to what I was saying, what if you did what Neo did, where you took the chance and saw what could happens next instead of assuming what happens next. How would this affect your life from then on?
   
    Many people in this world think that when life (the machines) brings them down and holds them there, that they think that either it's their time to leave the planet, or to change what and who they are. They assume  that they should change so that society and life will become better. Well I'm about to prove that wrong. In the Bible (sorry to people if I offend them), God told his people that there would be trials and tribulations in which we ALL must endure. In which we ALL will take into our life, that NO ONE was left out of the trials, so that God could determine how strong we are mentally, and physically. Basically we are God's "lab rats" and he wants us to become stronger so that we can face on the trials that life brings to us. Now everything happens for a reason and that the trials that you receive might not be the same as the other person next to you. We are all unique, but together...through Christ, we are all equal.


    I hope that I have gave you some advice in which you can take into account and if you have any questions or problems, you can email me at thejapfiles@gmail.com(please no hate mail). I would like people to go home, and get a piece of paper out. On that piece of paper, I would like you to draw a T-Chart. On the left side, put Good, and on the right, put Bad. Now on the Good side, list all of the good things that has happened to you and the Good things that you have done. On the right, list what you think were bad in your life. Now once you complete that, look at the Bad side. What could YOU do to change those into Good? How could you improve what you wrote in order to know more about you and more about life up ahead? I hope these questions will help you. I will post another blog dealing with life and what I put in my list, so I can be part of this. I hope everyone has a great night and great sleep. Night Peeps!!! <(^.^)>

Day 21 - Picture of Yourself

Well today, I am showing a picture of myself. Well anyways. I'm the person on the right (haha I know right?!?!). The lovely person on my left is my beautiful girlfriend. I love her to death and she is my longest relationship that I ever have. Her name is Tiffany Amber Meadows. I love her and I hope she feels the same. Well I'm off to bed. NIGHT PEEPS!!!!!



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-The Jap Files

Day 20 - Nicknames

Now I don't know if I'm suppose to say what I have been called or what I call people. But I'll just go with the first one because I'm really tired and feel like I need some sleep.
Now people call me "jap" because I'm half Japanese. I think it's cool that they call me that because no one else is called that either. I guess that's why they call it nicknames. haha. Anyways, I've also been called Japapeno because some people think I'm half mexican and half japanese. I also think that that's funny as well.  Well those are my two nicknames and I love them both. Well I'm off to bed, school's tomorrow. Oh well. NIGHT PEEPS!!!!

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-The Jap Files

Day 19 - Something You Miss

So today, I am here to talk about something that I miss. Well I miss a ton of stuff but I'll list only one. Something that I miss, other than my dear girlfriend, is when people use to get along and never have to fight. I miss when people use to be polite and always helpful.

Today, people are now hostile and turning their what you could say their instincts, into the stage of survival because of the rising taxes and rising gas prices, not to mention the 2012 situation that everyone is talking about one way or another. I remember when people use to not worry about the economy and the prices of gas and taxes because they were so low. Now since that they have risen and the economy has because more of a threat, people now think it's a great time to panic and turn to survival of the fittest.

Now I know that isn't the only thing that we are facing. Since about 2003, we have been fighting a war overseas to get oil, protect our freedom, and to eliminate the enemy. I think that they are just trying to bully other small countries just to prove that we are better than them. Also, they want another excuse to get more money from us, the American society. I just wish we could stop the war and all of this madness and go back to politeness and peace and justice.

This is something that I miss deeply. Well, I'm off to bed. NIGHT PEEPS

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-The Jap Files

Day 18 - Something I Regret (January 4th)

Well today I am suppose to discuss about something that I regret. Well if I had a time machine and were able to back in time and change everything that I regretted, then I could call myself perfect, but life doesn't allow me or anyone else to do that so that's why we say "learn from your past, so history doesn't repeat".
One thing that I regret is the way I treated people and wish they could forgive me for the past things that has happened. Another thing that I regret is not taking advantage of friends and how hanging out with them can help you in the long run. The third thing I regret is how the family situation that is going on with me is going. I wish that my mom and dad never divorced and wished that they would get along. Even though they got divorced doesn't mean that they should be enemies and not talk. I mean they have me, their son, and that what happened in the past has affected me and still does because there could have been many things that could of happened that would make life better.
Theses are the things that I regret and wish it could be fixed. Well I hope everyone has a great night because I'm headed to bed. NIGHT PEEPS!!!!

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-The Jap Files

Back To The Challenge - Day 17: Something You Look Forward To

So as I agreed to do yesterday, I have started back on my challenge. This day is about what I am looking forward to. Well I'm looking forward to many things but my favorite thing is graduating from high school. When I do graduate from high school, it will make me relax and relieve me of stress and plus it will let me achieve what my goal is. Even though there were so many memories with high school, I have to say that I am glad that I will be able to graduate and not worry about waking up early to get ready to learn about George Washington or the kinetic energy of an item. I can also gain some more money working and there for help me with saving up for things I want. Well this is what I am looking forward to. I hope everyone has a great night. NIGHT PEEPS!!!!

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-The Jap Files

The New Year! (January 1st)

Alright my fellow readers. Let me take this time to say that I am deeply sorry for not keeping up with the 30-day challenge. I hope that you understand and hope you will forgive me. Now that I have said that, I will continue the challenge on my next blog and will keep up with the challenge. As everyone knows, it is now 2011 (one more year until 2012), and everyone makes up a resolution in which will either be forgotten or broken before the year is over. My resolution is to not fight as much as last year with my girlfriend and to keep this blog up to date(if I have Internet available and all goes well). I hope everyone keeps up with their resolution and if you would like to share yours, just post a comment and I will comment back. I am also thinking about re-signing into a twitter but I do not know if it is worth it or not, if you would like to say what you think, then just comment as well. I hope everyone has a great night and tomorrow will be a new day. NIGHT PEEPS!!!!

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-The Jap Files